My adored son, I am heavy hearted, I have been trying to shake it off with no much sucsees, I miss you so much, and i feel so impotent to the things your baby has to endure with his mother, my angel please touch Vinnies mom heart so she will let him enjoy this christmas, he is a wonderful baby and deserves the best, help me do the right things for him i love him with all my heart... today is noche buena, the family is here I put a picture of you in the dinning room and it almost got burn, did you try to tell me something... I am not in tune these days, I am wearing the mask so no one can see my pain, but rest assure that you are in my mind day and night... If Jesus has a b-day party i am sure you are there having fun please tell him to give you permition to visit me and your baby... ... I love my son words can't even express how much... Merry christmas to you angel, you are in me and thru me you will always be remebered..XOXOXOXOX
Abrazo a la distancia / Pepe Moreno (Primo)Read >>
Abrazo a la distancia / Pepe Moreno (Primo)
Victor, hasta ahora me parece increible tu partida, aun que no pudimos compartir tiempo cuando fuimos mas grandes, mi carino y el de toda mi familia sigue siendo el mismo. Tu siempre seras Victitor, mi primito con quien yo jugaba en el Peru cuando era nino. Victor, pide por tu Mami para que Dios la ayude y le de mucha fuerza en esta fecha tan dificil, tu sabes cuanto te ama. Siempre te recordare. Pp
Three long long years without you my son..... / Mom Read >>
Three long long years without you my son..... / Mom
My adored son, it has been three long years without you, how did I make it, how did I survived.... some days the only thing that carried me through was your love, your beautiful smile, your unfailng phone calls, the sound of your voice, your wisdom,... I live and I don't feel alive, but because you believed in me I am trying to do what I need to do to be here, for your brother, your son, your sisters, your nephew..... when something fun happens quietly I think of you... and wish you were here....are you around us? some days i know you are... others I question it? The last three years has been the longest and the shortest... it seems like yesterday when I heard your voice, and it seems so long. since the last time I huged you... I know during this time you have tried to show me your love, I am so lucky to have your son to hold and hug, to kiss him when I am around him, so forgive my greediness... I want to believe that you are happy where you are now, that you are helping others... God must be so pleased with you... you are not alone for there is people who loved you in this earth with you... say hello to them, to Anita, my dad, your dad and all our relatives... you probably have made friends with all the kids from my grief group... please look out after them, their mom's are missing them so much, like I am missing you. I love my son with all my heart and my soul, you must know that... and I will continue to love you until the day we hold each other again... Receive a million of kisses sent to you from the deeps of my heart adored son... I love you!...Mom Close
Victor/ Jorge Hernani (uncle)
Ya casi es la fecha tan dolorosa desde que te fuiste ese dia, tu hermosa mama te extraña mucho, lo mismo que nosotros en la familia te extrañamos, y ahora que visito esta pagina mas cuando veo tus fotos de niño, te vi nacer, te vi en fotos, luego viniste a quedarte con nosotros en Argentina, cuando te ensenaba a leer en castellano, y leias polo en vez de pollo, cuando fuimos a Mar del Plata, pasamos la noche en un hotel barato frente al mar... wow quien puede pensar hoy en dia que dos menores de edad podian viajar solos y hasta hospedarse en hotel? Hoy me siento muy melancolico, viendo fotos de la family de mis amistades, escuchando musica viejita...Como me gustaria saber si hay un boton para retroceder en la vida. Tu que estas alla esperanos, hay varios que vamos tarde o temprano, lamentablemente es mas temprano que tarde ya que yo soy como el ultimo de la generacion probablemente tendre que ver la partida de los quien quiero uno por uno y eso me duele. Pero hay dos generaciones que continuaran con el legado de nuestra familia. Asi como tu mamita le duele tu partida, ella te escribio un poema muy bello. Solo una madre sabe lo que es perder un hijo. Aunque no soy de palabras hoy si he escrito y mucho para mis estandares. Aunque paresca un ingrato contigo, siempre estas en mi mente. Realmente I miss you.
Time has not changed what is in my heart Wanting to give you a hug or hear the sound of your laugh Each day the thought of you comes to my mind, Wishing you were still here with us
I can not change the past, or the love we had You were my first born, my teacher, my guide, my friend But above all you were My Son!
Time can not change my love or the longing of my soul For each day I live, it brings me closer to be, With the child I gave birth… To the wonderful man you became to be! Close
El amor de mi vida eres y seres por siempre / Mama, Read >>
El amor de mi vida eres y seres por siempre / Mama,
Amado hijito, hoy es 1ero de Diciembre, siento como que un tren me va arroyar y no hay nada que pueda hacer para detenerlo, en doce dias mas sufrire el dolor mas horrible que una madre pueda sentir, el dolor mas desgarrador que he podido sentir al cumplirse 3 anos desde que nos dejaste. El por que paso esto, es algo que ya no pregunto con frecuencia, a veces pienso que hubiese hecho para poder evitarlo, recorro los cortos anos que compartimos (27) y trato de pensar que estuvo a mi alcanse para que yo pudiera cambiar este final,... la verdad es que no cambiaria nada, te di todo el amor que tuve en mi corazon, fui tu guia y consejera, me esmere en darte un buen ejemplo, te ayude en todo lo que estuvo a mi alcanze, y tu me diste todo el amor que una madre pueda desear, me educaste en cosas de la vida, me apoyaste en mis anhelos y me empujaste a que los alcansara, siempre supe que me amabas como tu supiste que yo a ti, fuimos los mejores amigos... pasamos momentos tristes y alegres,... lo que mas extrano ahora en mis momentos de soledad son tus llamdas por telefono y tus fuertes abrasos, ... tu sonrisa tan bonita y tu sentido el humor... muchos dias cuando camino por las calles o estoy manejando siempre te busco entre la gente, hay dias que veo tu sorrisa reflejada en un nino, como hoy en el banco, lo mire y tu viniste a mi mente.... creo que es asi como tratas de hacerme sentir que no estas lejos verdad?...
Hijito de mi alma, te extrano con todo mi corazon diariamente, tu lo sabes por que te llevo dentro de mi todo el tiempo... dame fuerzas para poder pasar entos dis... siento que se me desgarra el corazon, este dolor es tan solo... nadie me habla de ti y me gustaria que lo hicieran, si lloro delante de alguin me tratan de calmar... por eso es que te lloro sola en mi cuarto, cuando manejo... tu siempre estas en mi memoria...
Desde que nos dejaste no he dejado de pensar en ti... te amo tanto mi cielo... se que cada dia que pasa es un dia que me acerco mas a ti...
Tu mama que te amo y amara por siempre...Teresa Close
35 Months and my heart still aches for you my angel / Mom Read >>
35 Months and my heart still aches for you my angel / Mom
My dearest baby, my heart is numb and I am in awe, I know that you are alive and one day you will stretch your arms to receive me when I cross the veil, you know that I have been taking care of Willy, and we talked about life after death at length, he gave me the greatest gift I could receive before he passed away, now I have to wait when my turn comes.
oh how glorious that day will be... I am at peace, I miss you so much my son and life with out you here has been so hard, but I am living for your son, your beautiful baby, he is my joy and happiness along with Danny, Erika's baby, he has the most beautiful smile and he is into everything... for your brother and sisters… we will be together again in no time and never be apart… I love my adored son, my friend, my baby…
34 Months who would though they come so fast... / Mom Read >>
34 Months who would though they come so fast... / Mom
My adores son, today is the 34th month since you died, how horrible it feels in my heart to admit that, no matter what I do or say every 13th is a day that I wish did not exist in the calendar, but it is not possible... do I want to go back in time just 34th months ago and one day... could I have made a difference... I don't know... but I would have told you like every day that I spoke to you that I love you... I would have send you home with a million kisses, my son I miss you so very much... there is so many things I wish you could enjoy, like your boy... he is cute and smart... that love would have made your stay worthwhile... now we have to put our heads together with the other grandparents and aunt to give him what he is missing... please my son guide him and us in this endevour... we love your son with all our hearts... I will be visinting him in a couple of weeks for his birthday...I want to make it very special ... we are planning to go to sea world... he will love that. today Bruno tia Charo was here with his son, it is a rainy morning and I gave him one of your sweaters... he will treasure it... I felt that you were alive wearing it... Son you are missed and are in the hearts of many of the people you touch their lives, PJ from PH wrote a beautiful farewell to his his friend and among then he took the time to say how proud he was to count you as one of his friend... I will give that note to your son, so he will know who you were... Jerrry is doing well hopefully he will get a job soon, please continiue to look after your brother , he misses you and loves you very much... all the rest of the family is doing great... Erikas baby is getting big a very cute too, I am babysitting him this morning... later i am going with tia Olinda, Charo and her son to Pamdale for tio Miguels B-day...
Remember my son that I am and allways be thinking of you every day of my live... i love baby.... Close
33 Months, My love for you will never die / Mom Read >>
33 Months, My love for you will never die / Mom
My adored Son, as I put the title on this tribute, I thought that my love for you is eternal, no one can take from my heart, and it will follow me through eternity. How are you my baby, is heaven what we think it is? are you happy there? I bet you have made lots of friends.... ... I long so much for you, to see your beautiful smile, and good sense of humor, your daily phone calls, you asking how am I doing... I wonder if I could have done any thing differernt, whould the out come be different? What I know and you know is that I love you with all my heart, I would have trade places in a second with you, just for you to be here near your son, he will never truly know how much you would have loved him, some times I entertain my self with thoughts of you parenting this child.... he is so cute and so smart... I am trying to put him in school, he needs to be in an orginazed enviroment... he has to much to learn... I am so afraid for him, because he spends to much time in front of the TV... his aunt, loves him very much, she has a lot on her plate and yet finds time for him... I am very grateful to her... please keep looking out for her and her family. Life here is the same thing for all of us, Jerry still working and he is doing much better, he has a lot of resposibilities at his job, and he looks happy... I still worry about him, but you already know that... I wish I can turn the clock back a few years, maybe 5... it was difficult then for us, but if I knew what i know now, I would have listen better... I would have hug you more, I would have let you walk sooner... I hope God is happy having you back with him... I know that by now you are a leader of a pack... teaching and helping others... While I am here keep in eye on me so i can teach your son about you and give him a little of what you could have... I love you my adoraded son, te quiero con todo mi corazon mi amor... Mom Close
My adored son, I have a heav heart, ever since I come back from seeing your son Vinnie who is the cutes thing in the world, he would have loved you having you as a father, he is so smart and mature for his age, I just love him with all my heart... While I was there I furnished his bedroom, I did all I could in the time I had, it looks very cute, Gaby gave me our anual gift certificate from Costco, with that I bought the bed and matress, the rest come from you... but it woulkd have been so nice for you to be there... doing it yourself... Oh son i miss you and at moments I get really angry at all that has happened, but never angry at you ... some days I feel you precense so clearly... I am trying to do all I can to live a normal life, but the hole in my heart and the missing is so deep that some times I loose it... The WHY still linger in my mind, the aceptance at times is very hard, at times I think of you as if you were in a long trip, and you will be back at any time... Please my baby help me to get the streght I need to move forward... help me to help your baby... I must be for him, he desperately needs to have all the love I can give him... I love you mu baby today tomorrow and always... your mother...
32 months... seem to be a long time and yet is so short... / Mom Read >>
32 months... seem to be a long time and yet is so short... / Mom
My adored son, today is sunday August 12, 2007 a day like today 32 months ago I spoke with for the last time, I had no idea that Monday 13th will be forever imprinted in my life , during this time I have missed you with all my heart, is true that time eases the pain but the hole in my heart still big and hurts for you, so many dreams cut short... so many things that you would not experience, the one it hurts the most is for you not to here to raise your boy, he is cute and so smart... his favorite toys are Power Rangers... Every time i see him I buy some for him... and now when he talks to me he ask for them... at the end of the month I am going to visit him, they got a new apartment and I am going to get him bedroom set...I am trying to give him what you would have giving him, a lot of love, I want him to know that you would have adored him... he is the only link I have to you as a living person... I love you son so very much... and i miss you... you are always in my heart and mind... I am trying to relax so I can dream of you... but those dreams come so seldon and are so vage, and yet i dream of other things so vividly...Victor is there life after this life? are you at peace? some days I question everything... some days I pray for guidance and comfort to really know... One thing that I know for sure is that my love for you will never die... and for as long as I am alive I will love you ...
Please my angel, continue to watch over your brother and your baby and when you are ready please take me with you... I know you love me and you miss me... for all those who are with you in the spirit world give them my love I think often of my father, your father and Anita...
I love you my ange,l my son... your mother and best friend... Close
Message to Teresa / Brenda Ross (friend of his mother )Read >>
Message to Teresa / Brenda Ross (friend of his mother )
Teresa,
I was so touched looking at the pictures of your son's life. He was such a beautiful boy and was so happy. I know that you have wonderful memories of him. God Bless you both!!
I'm still sober / Tom Kramer (buddy)
I think of Victor often. He was a friend and inspiration when I entered rehab and tried to get sober. I'll always remember his positive attitude and ever present smile. He was very easy going and a friend ready to help a hand and give good advice. Everyone who has ever known Victor misses him greatly. Close
31 Months... I love you more each day / Mom Read >>
31 Months... I love you more each day / Mom
Adored Son, today marks the 31st month since you passed the veil, in these time I thought of you every single day and it will be the same until I join you, last month after I come back from visiting your beautiful son in Texas I decided to change my attitude, part of my selfish love want you here with all of us but my great love for you has allowed me to understand that you are at peace now, you are free from all the strugles of this life, I know that you are pleased with this desition and I too want to make you happy, you know how much I love you and how much I think of you but now i am trying to be here for your son Vinnie, he needs his grandma T to tell him about you... I had the best time with him, he gave me so many kisses and we sleep together... I spoke with him last night he told me I love you... he is very smart and active child, I wish he was near so I can see him more often but he is happy in Texas he lives with his cousins and his aunt, she is very loving and patience with him... In this process of changing I have painted the house in bright colors, finished the floors and put tile in the bathroom, the house eventually will look good, tomorrow we will beging the cleaning process and throwing thing that I don't need... Many people talks about signs from their loved ones, you are not very big on that but for some reason I have felt your presence more vividly since I have a more positive attitude, i know is your way to telling me that you approve what I am doing. Jerry is doing okay he is recuperating from his accident and working he is been there for 6 months a mile stone for him, I still worry about him but I know that you are keeping an eye on him, . the rest of the family is well no major changes and I would like to keep it like that... if you see my dad please tell him that i love him and miss him same thing for Anita, last night I was looking at the picture of you and her... is like she was flying and you pig it back on her .... know you both are angels... I love you my adored son, you know that because you can read my heart...but I need to say this aloud for me to reaffirm your presence...please keep watching your son, he will need all your help from heaven...and also show your self to me when you are ready... millions of kisses to the most beutiful and kind son in the world... your mom.
30 months and I still miss you with all my heart / Mom Read >>
30 months and I still miss you with all my heart / Mom
My adored son, tomorrow will be 30th month sinse you left this mortal life to joing the eternal life, it hasn't been a day that you are not think by me or that you are not though about, I am so grateful for your infinite love for me for all the gifts that you have given me, but most of all for your son, he is the light of my darkest day, these last five days were the most precious moments I had ever spend since you died, I went to see your baby and he is so wonderful, we slept together, we played and we talked about you... he is bright smart and very special.... I know that your looking out for him from heaven and that you are giving me the healh and strenght to be there for him... he gave me the most delicious kisses we have a geme beetween us and we have to kiss each other... he is rambocious and fun to be... has energy to burn... I love you son so much but my love for Vinnie is catching up to yours too... I know that you are happy for that... I need to be well and live a long life so I can tell him about you and how much you would have loved him, he is a happy baby and is sorrunded by people that love him.... My baby I still would trade places with you in a split secod if i could so you could enjoy your child...but while I am here I will do my very best to supply him with all the love and nurture that you would have given him... I love you son with all my heart... please keep an eye on your brother Jerry it worries me very much... he got hurt last week and I almost die of pain and worry... he still plays around with fire and that makes me very nervous... Erika nd her family are doing very good your nephew is so cute and adorable a funny guy... Mariela is also doing well ... busy going to school and her husband too...the rest of the family are doing well too... I miss you but I know that in no time we will be together again... I love you with all my heart... Mom Close
So Very Sorry for Your Loss / Melissa Eiler (Visitor~Daughter of Irwin & Renee Eiler )Read >>
So Very Sorry for Your Loss / Melissa Eiler (Visitor~Daughter of Irwin & Renee Eiler )
29th months -Mother's Day / Mom
My adored son, 29th months ago you left me... today its also Mother's Day... I still remember your gift four years ago, and I still have the Bloominsdale card you gave me... My baby I miss you more each day but I am trying to accept that even thou I will never see you again in this earth you are with me in spirit, and that in due time we will be together again, I need to do what I can to live a good life here for you, your baby and for the rest of your brother and sisters... there isn't a day that I don't think of you and wonder how different my life would have been, I don't understand why you have to die so young but in time I know I will... I had a beautiful talk with Cristal last night, I felt that it was your gift to me... thank you my darling... I also heard a bird singing, I was thinking of you when I was puting on my necklace ... it is the one with a Mother and Child in one eternal heart and love... Today all the family was here, Freddy made carne asada and I made empanadas.. it was a good day... and I felt your love around me... Thank you my baby for your life here with me... for choosing me to be your mother, for your unconditional love and patience with me... I feel honered to have been called your mother yesterday, today and forever... My love for you is undying and eternal... millions of kisses my beautiful baby...your Mom Close
Happy Birthday / Jonathan Gordon (best friend )
Dear Victor, I miss the way u made me laugh. You were and strill are my best friend. So u are the boig 30 now huh!!!. Haha man you r old hahaha just playing Happy birthday bro!!!! Close
Happy Birthday / Xenia (soulmate)
My lovely,im sorry for being so sad on your Bday...I miss you more then ever...Do you remember,we were talking,that we are gonna get married when we will be 30 and have the cutest babies ...i knew in my heart,that we will be forever together,i knew in my heart,that you are the Best guy in the World,i knew,that Nobody gonna be better,then YOU,i knew in my heart,that Nobody gonna treat me better then YOU...i knew,that we r Soulmates,not just a boyfriend and girlfriend...Since you v being gone i hit the bottom of my sadness,i lost without You...Nobody,exept your Mom and your family understands how painful is that...I know,Why you loved your Mother So much,She is Amazing,thats why you v got this Beautiful Soul...I miss you so bad...In the same time i do understand,that im blessed,that i had a chance to meet You and have you in my life...You are the One ,who proved to me,that all my dreams to have a Perfect guy and have a Tru Love are exist,that im normal,that its not my sick emagination...You are my dream come tru.You were Angel at the earth. Now you are Angel in the heaven.Thank you for being in my life,even,if it hurts. I love You Forever Close
Happy Birthday!! / Erika Meza (sister)
Happy birthday Victor!!! I miss you so very much and think about you all the time. Mom really misses you too!! I wish we could all be together to celebrate such a wonderful day with you in a way we will later tonight we will be over at mom's singing you happy birthday. So much has happened since we saw you last . I'm a mommy now to a wonderful boy named Daniel. Now your son has a cousin that he can play with. Vinnie is such a great boy! You would of been such a great dad. we miss you so much!! I got a Yukon Denali and both Jerry and I thought about you right away and how you would of loved the car! My dear brother there is so many things that remind us of you, your always with us! I love you and miss you. Visit us once in a while so we know that your there ,especially mom she needs you more than ever. When you left us I couldn't understand what mom was going through but now that I have my little boy I would feel the same wayif i lost him,a moms love is so strong for her children that it's irreplaceable. I try to see her once a week so she can spend time with Danny. But we are missing vinne! well hope your celebrating in heaven with the angels! Love you sooo much!!
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