Happy 30th Birthday / Mom
My beautiful Angel, Happy 30th birthday... heaven must be preparing for this wonderful event ... I wish I was there with you so I could give you a hug and be part of the celebration.... 30 years ago it was the happiest day of my life, you made me a mother and your birth here was a celebration, I was so new at this that I didn't know how to change your diapers.... you were born so stocky and compact... your birth changed my life forever ... you were curious about everything.... your nanny thought you were a prince and she called you so.... for me you were a king... you started walking at 8th months and stop wearing diapers at 1, you made my life so complete and in the prosess made me wise... Oh Victitor, I would give anything to have you here with me and tell you tales of your youth... when I think back, I released that everything you did was before your time, I should have paid attention and notice that your death was going to be before your time too...but I didn't, I had visions of you growing older and being a grandma to your children... I am grateful that I am a grandma to your wonderful son Vinnie... he is one of the reasons that gives me hope.... I need to be here, for me to tell him about you... how wonderful son you were and how wonderful father you could have been... Tomorrow on your birthday I will make your favorite chocolate cake, and I will have the kids over so we can celebrate your life ... you know how much I miss you and how heartbroken I am ... I want to change my negative attitude and accept that you just went before me... and that in no time we will be together again and then we will not be apart ... your birth was the source of happiness never new before... your death was the source of sadness never new could exist... but I am grateful for you, for your teachings and for choosing me to be your mother... for all the happy times and the hard times we shared together as a family, for the love we shared... Happy Birthday my son, and angel in heaven... I loved you yesterday, I love today and I will love you until the day I die... Feliz Cumpleanos my baby feel my love and hugs around you... millions of kisses my love.... XOXOXOXOOXOXOOXOOXOXOOXOOXOXOXOOXOOXOOXOXOOXOOXOXOOXOX Close
28 Months / Mom
My adored son, the calendar keeps rolling his days it has been 28 months since I last heard your voice, It hasn't been a day that you were not inmy mind, I loved you and cared fo you for 27 and a half years, I got to know you so well, you were at times very challenging but the rewards of seeing you happy and strong were far more that those challenging years, ... as I sit today to comtemplate your life and mine, I have to believe that it was your time, I have been dealing with this horrible monster of depression, at the moment I am medicated... but I want to get better and feel better, if you were here I am sure that you didn't want me to see me like this, nor do I like to see me so sad and sick... one day we will be with each other again my adored son, I have to hold onto that thought to gain the strengh I need it to move forward... I want to be in your son's life I need to tell him all about you and how wonderful son you were but most important how wonderful parent you could have been... I know that Vinnie is a gift from God... he will finish what you started here... I don't know what it is but it has to be something good... My precious baby, continue to look after your brother, he misses you and loves you very much, and after all of us.... I as your mom will forever love you until the last breath of my life... I wish I could hold you and kiss you my angel... but you know that I do this in my heart ... I love you my baby.... Mom Close
Happy Easter / Mom
My adored son, I miss you so much but today I miss you more, your presence will be missed at our table but your memory is with us it is with me all the time, you know how much I need you, you know how much I am pleading for your guidance, I miss your energy and your faith in me, I miss my best friend, I miss you my baby....It is so hard for me to find solace and peace, all my life I felt that I was mainmed, today without you I know I am, the why's will never leave my mind, I know one day will be together again but until then I will be missing and loving you more each day. I had some sort of peace when Vinnie was here, now that he is not my heart aches twice as much, for you and for him, he was my sunshine in my darkest days... I love you my baby, my son, with all that is possible in my heart... I am sending you millions of kisses across the universe....your mom Close
I can't tell you how difficult it is to write to you and not able to pick up a phone to say I LOVE YOU!
It been so long since i have seen your face and heard your voice. But i keep your memory alive by photo's and speaking with your mom. I promise you that i will keep intouch with her more often. She sounds well, but i can hear in her voice she misses you dearly. We all do!
Thinking of Victor / Linda-GN Mom2Dawn&Laurie4ever (friend of Mom )Read >>
Thinking of Victor / Linda-GN Mom2Dawn&Laurie4ever (friend of Mom )
Light a Candle
Light a candle for those we mourn Into a new life they will be born. Do not look for them at the grave site. They are somewhere else radiating their beautiful light. They have gone to a new world where there is no darkness, no pain. Their light and essence will always remain. Light a candle for those who have left this mortal place. They are free to travel through time and space. When we think of them, they are near. When we sit in a beautiful garden. Their voices we hear. When we listen to a divine symphony, We close our eyes, their faces we see. Light a candle for they have not really gone. With each flickering flame, in your hearts they will always belong.
My adored son, yesterday was my birthday and you were missed so very much, I remember almost 3 years ago, I wanted to celebrate my birthday with all of you, I didn't do it because Erika was away, so I postponed for a later day, that day never came and in December you had left this world leaving me with the biggest hole in my heart, a hole that I try to close and heal to no avail, tia Olinda was here for my birthday she was the first one to hug me and wish me a happy birthday, after that I went to the patio and cried for you for your absence, why it has to be this way my sweet son? I asked Margie, Cristal mom to bring Vinnie to say happy birthday to me and they didn’t do it, I don’t understand why they have to be so cold and selfish, I kept thinking that if you were here this baby would have grown to love me and to know me, they don’t make any efforts in teaching him to love our family, My frustration comes from my impotency to make them understand that he is important in my life, he will benefit by getting to know us, he is such smart and beautiful baby, please look out for him, keep him safe and whisper in his heart how much you love him, I want to live long enough to let him know that you would have adored him. Son life without you is very hard but little by little I am trying to pick up the pieces of my shutter life, Jerry is working for almost 3 months,, I worry about him but not us much as when he wasn’t working… he still very immature, Erika her husband and the baby were at the house also Mariela and her husband, Gladys, Sabrina Silvina tio Ricardo and Daniela were there too, they made carne asada and they gave me really nice presents but probably my most wanted present was to see your baby, or to dream with you none of this happen…. If only you would come in my dreams… I would be happy to see you and hug you… I miss you my baby… tomorrow is going to be 27 months…. 27…. Some days I think this is a bad dream… and another I think that we are so close to see each other again, Oh! How wonderful that moment would be…. We will never have to be away from each other again…..Do you miss me as much as I miss you? I hope you do… one think I know is that you love me even after death… our love will never die and as long I am in this earth I will do whatever it takes to keep your memory alive…. I love you today tomorrow and always you Mom Teresa
26 Months / Mom
My adored Son, Today is the 26 month of your early departure, how heartbreaking is to remember this day, the pain and piercing in my heart is so intense, but there is no place to turn to pour my heart out but this place, it almost feels like visiting you at your gravesite the only thing is that you don’t have one, you are at home with me in our house, in the place that you many times walk through and called my name as soon you walked in the door, no more of that… your voice is echoed in my heart, in my soul…. But I will give anything to hear you calling my name…”Where is mom” oh who sweet it feel just to play it in my mind… last Saturday I visited with your son, with Vinnie, he was happy beyond words I bought for him his Power Rangers , he asked me for a black on but I got him more than that… you would have been such a good dad, I know how much you would have loved this baby, he is smart bright and happy… I feel sad that Cristal won’t allowed me to take him for a ride, I wish with all my heart that she would change, there are so many things wrong in that picture but there is nothing I can do to change it… he was crying because she did not let him go outside and I held him in my arms he leaned his head and let me baby him, it felt so good to do that for him, I want him to know that he will have a friend and someone who will love him in me, he wanted to come with me and she did not let him come, I left him crying and I was crying too… for all of this…. If you were here none of this non sense would be going on, but I must look at the positive, I am grateful for this baby for you being there alive and growing strong and well… I hope to be around long enough to tell him about you to share your life with him the good the bad and the ugly…. He will understand and I know he will love you no matter what… like I do and others do too… my baby please continue to look out for us, for your brother and your baby keep them away from harm and imprint your love in their hearts as for me you know that you can count on me I always be there for you my love for you will die only when I cease to exist in this earth…. I love and miss my son, my first born, my friend….
Thinking of you / Mom
My adored son, I was working and all of sudden I had this impresion that I needed to write to you, every day you are in my mind and in my heart, yesterday when I was taking care of Daniel, Erika's baby, I asked him if he got to know you and his Granpa in heaven, he open his eyes and smile, like letting me know that he did, ... I miss you my so so much, when i am alone in the house I think of you, I went through some papers and I found a letter you wrote me once, It made me cry because I wish we can sit and talk about the good old days, that you and I can reminense of the days gone by, why you have to die? I will never know this answer... but if there is a life in heaven i will see you there, I am happy that your brother got a good job, he is trying hard to get him self out of the tickets mess he got into... hopefully one at the time he will solve them, he is working hard, this weekend was nice I got to see him, we went to dinner with him and Erika and Freddy, Mariela and her husband were helping me in the house doing the finishing touches of the little bedroom that Erika painted... it looks very nice, Tia Nelly and my sister Gladys are comming from Argentina, we are very happy to have them ... My adored and much loved son I need to close know, it is late and i need to go home, I love darling, forever and ever your loving Mom Close
25 Months / Mom
My Adored son, Today is the 25th month of your leaving, I still think it is not true, my heart is heavy with pain and your memories flood my mind, how did this happen, and why will be forever in my heart, I miss you so much but I find solace in huging and kissing your baby, today I went to see him, he calls me grandma T, I gave him a hug with all the love that I have in my heart for you I did it in your name, I know that you would have love this child with all your heart, he is so hadsome and he has so many things of you.... he has your dimple and the way you look, silently I regoice seeing him, every hug and every touch i gave him is like I am hugging you, I will be forever grateful for this gift, for your infinite love and your ways of showing me that you are alive.... I also bought the car you promized me, you would have been so happy seeing me driving this car, I know that your would have borrow it to impress a lady:-), or just to show off.... I love you my baby soooo very much.... some day we will be together again.... until then keep looking out for all of us here, for your brother Jerry who misses you and loves you so much, for Erika and her new baby, he makes me so happy and it is so cute, a whinner like his mom, pay back time for Erika:-) to Silvina with her new car, look out after her so she will be safe and for the rest of the family, say hello to all our family there for me.... I love you beyond words .... Mom Close
Another year that brings me closer to you / Mom Read >>
Another year that brings me closer to you / Mom
My beloved and adored son, as this year comes to end I want to share some of the majors events in this terrestial life with out you, I got to know and love your beautiful son more this year, he knows that I am grandma and he calls me so... he gives me kisses even thou he doesn't kiss anyone... I cherish every moment I spend with him and I am looking forward for him one day to come and visit me... I am grateful for his life and for your gift, my life with out you is so hard but knowing that he is yours gives me a sence of peace you live in him and through him, he has your eyes and your looks.... you would have loved this baby so very much.... Jerry has moved out out of no where and is living with Leroy, from Chabad.... it worries me but I hope and pray he will grow and make the right choices, I love him so much that it hurts... I know he is trying to do better so I never cease to pray for him...I just got word that Kika has join you and your dad, I hope you are getting along and getting to know each other, Mariela is happily married and getting used to to that state of life, and Erika has given me a wonderful gift on December 28th, a beautiful boy Daniel Ethan, I saw him coming into this world, and he is just to cute...he is already spoilded... but that why we are grandmas... he lucky to have 3....during this past year it hasn't been a moment that you are not in my mind and heart, I some times let my mind got to memory lane just to remember you.... I love you and I will do so until we will be reunited again... this night as the New Year rolls in I will say a prayer of gratitude for you for your love and for your life in my life... I miss your physical body but I feel your love in every thing I do... say hello to all our family in heaven my Dad, Anita, my cousing Jose, Kika and your Dad.... Loving today and ever your Mom Close
Primito/ Pepe Moreno (Primo)
Hola Victor, sabes que guardo muy buenos recuerdos de cuando eramos ninos ( bueno el nino era yo, por que tu eras un Bebe) de cuando jugabamos en tu casa en Lima y le haciamos algunas travesuras a tu Mami. Cuando se vinieron a vivir a este pais, todos en mi casa los extranabamos mucho y siempre los teniamos presente, cada vez que ustedes regresaban al Peru y nos iban a visitar, era como una fiesta para nosotros, eran momentos de mucha alegria, era tanta la alegria, que yo me daba mis escapadas y los iba a visitar donde ustedes se hospedaban cuando se quedaban en Lima. Bueno Primo, con todo esto quiero decirte que siempre te tengo y he tenido presente y te recuerdo con mucho carino, a pesar de que nos dejamos de ver por muchos a#os. Te mando un fuerte abrazo y te pido me disculpes por haberme demorado en escribirte. Cuida mucho a tu Mami y a tus hermanos
recordado primo / Teresita Pacheco Hernani (prima)Read >>
recordado primo / Teresita Pacheco Hernani (prima)
hola primo aunque es hoy tu aniversario triste recordarlo por tu partida tubistes la suerte al tener una gran madre si nosotros la queremos mucho a mi tia me imaguino como la abras amado tu ... elevare una oracion al cielo por el descanso querido primo aunque no te llegue a conoser que dios te tenga en la gloria
se despide tu prima chau ................teresa pacheco
mi sobrino lindo / Ana Maria Hernani Ferro (tia)Read >>
mi sobrino lindo / Ana Maria Hernani Ferro (tia)
querido sobrino ,....hace 24 meses partiste dejando un gran dolor a tu madre ya todos los que tuvimos la suerte de conocerte esa pena que tiene mi hermana igual lo e sentido yo pero ya estas al lado de mi hijita,mi papacito , daniel, y demas familiaresque ya no estan con nosotros despues de todo ese es el camino que vamos a seguir sabes mi hermana estaba muy orgullosa de ti por que aun con tus altivajos supiste salir adelante y quiero darte las gracias por que fuiste un buen hijo y supiste ser amigo yo espero que teresa pueda encontrar consuelo aunque es un poco dificil pero no impocible, donde quiera que ustedes esten solamente es un tiempo esperanos , ni tu mama ni yo estubimos preparadas para pasar esta dura pueba el señor lo dispuso asi
2 Years my beloved son and it seems like yesterday / Mom Read >>
2 Years my beloved son and it seems like yesterday / Mom
Victitor , adored son, my heart is heavy with pain and sorrow... words don't do justice of the love and longing in my heart for you, many times I pretend you are around, near me, or away on a trip, but when the reality sinks in I know that for the rest of my mortal life I will not be able to see you again... when I dream of you I don't want to wake up... the reality of your absence is so pianful and tears my heart open..., you know how much I miss you... I feel so guilty for missleading you... for making you believe that you will live till old age, you always believe me, please forgive me... today I am going to visit your baby, thank you for that gift... I know that by huging him I will be huging you... he brings so much happiness and peace in my heart... he is so cute and smart... like you, the other day Gaby told me that he will finish what you were set out to do in this earth, he misses you and when he saw your picture he gave you a kiss... Ossi his baby is vety attached to me, and for some odd reason I know that he knows you... My child know and don't ever doubt for a second that as long as I have a breath in this life my love for you will grow stronger each day... and you will never be forgotten... it is my whish that where ever you are you are happy and at peace... keep looking out for all of us here specialy for your brother... Loving you today and forever... Mom Close
It has been 2 years since you left this world, bit seems like it was yesterday, and I want nto tell you how much I miss you, even if I do not show any emotions or feelings to others about your passing, I am always grateful for all the blessings that I received from you, I would prefer you to be here instead of me in this office a million times, becausse this should belong to you and much more. Things have changed here, some people are still here and others left we would love to see you here and enjoy the final touches, the Christmas tree looks fantastic, and I know you are going to be proud of your mom's cooking for our next Christmas party at the office and at your home.
I will light a clandle in your memory. Love Tio Jorge
I wish you were here... / Mom
In a few days it will the second year that I got the most horrific news of all ... I can't believe it has been 24 months since I last heard your voice, My adored son I miss you so very much... I know you are trying to comfort me the best that you can but my heart aches so much for you... my adored son forgive me for all my tears... I am your mother and I will never stop loving you and missing you ... I got your message the other night and I know you are looking out for all of us... the perfume was the most exquisite smell I have ever smelled in my life, you are such a loving son and I know that when the time comes for me you will be there waiting for me to receive me with open arms how joyfull that moment its going to be... you know that my only consolation is your baby, and maybe Erika's baby... she is due any time... if she delivers the baby on the 13 I will know that is your doing... ask Father in heaven to give you permision to visit me... I long so much for your hugs.. Jerry misses you too he is hurting bad but we can't comunicate... I remember your words of wisdom... "be patience Mom"... I am being patience son... I am sending you a million hugs and kisses... I love you today and forever....Mom Close
I miss you my adored son / Mom
My adored son, if you are indeed alive you must know that I miss you more than ever, I need you so much in my life, you know my strugles with your brother and I have no one to talk to about my worries and the pain I feel in my heart, you were supposed to be here helping me, with your little brother... I feel so alone and tired.... why it had to be this way.... why life is so hard and painful, and why I feel that it is my fault... I know I could have been a better mother but I try with all my heart to be the best I could be, sometimes I look at the family I have put together and is so disfuctional... the girls are always quarreling, Jerry lives in another planet, I contineu to work like like crazy... it is not about the money but it is how I feel disconected from all the pains in my life... I had so many dreams as a young mother, I thought if I love all of you, you guys would be good kids and beter human beings, I maybe unfair by saying this but my life is not near what I thought will be... your death has coused such wound in my heart and on top of that Jerry's actions, Erika's choices, Mariela's detachment, hurt me very much... the only person that brings me joy is Vinnie, I called him today and he said "hi grandma" it melted my heart... I am happy about Erika's baby, I know it will bring me joy but I am not putting my heart in it... I can't take any more disapoinments.... I am so lonely, I miss your calls and our talks... I miss you and love so much, no matter how busy I am you are always on my mind I am counting the days until I see you again.... I love you my adored son... Close
And if I go, while you're still here... Know that I live on, vibrating to a different measure --behind a thin veil you cannot see through. You will not see me, so you must have faith. I wait for the time when we can soar together again, --both aware of each other. Until then, live your life to its fullest. And when you need me, Just whisper my name in your heart, ...I will be there.
23 Months / Mom
My beloved Son, 23 Months ago on a day like today maybe around this time, your life was ending on this earth, I have never questioned if you suffer or you just went to sleep peacefully… you know that every day you are in my mind and I think of you constantly… but last night I had a vivid dream that you were sitting in that front door crying, you were about 12 or 13 years old… as I open the door I said to you “you come back” and you image faded away…. Are you trying to tell me something? are you unhappy? Is my crying and thinking of you upset you? My adored son I wish I know what to do and how to stop the pain… I try hard to move forward, I keep myself really busy, but you are never away from my mind, this is the best that I can do…. I love you and I miss you…. I think last Saturday night you were watching over me when the stove did a back draft on my face, other that my burned hair my face is fine… I always feel your presence around me and that gives me comfort…. This past Month has been difficult for me, on Halloween, I fell into a deep depression, I thought how much you liked this holiday and how you loved to dress up like Nero, or a gladiator… you liked the roman stile costumes…. but what saddens me was maybe two years a go it was the beginning of the end…. I know that you loved me so much that you didn’t wanted to worried me, but I would have loved to talk to you , maybe you tried and I was too busy… forgive me my son for all those times that I hung up on you because I was working… I would give my life to make it up to you… This week is so important for our family, Mariela is getting married on Saturday, I am catering her weeding, his family is going to come and help me decorate the cup cakes, she wants a weeding cup cake, I can’t stop thinking how happy and proud you would have been for her… she is doing very well and she looks happy… they make a cute couple… Erika is getting big by the minute…. She also is getting married Nov 30th, her weeding is going to be very simple… no fuss at all… I asked Cristal if she is going to bring Vinnie, but she is not sure…. I don’t think she understands the importance of your presence in our life, and how much we want to include your son in all of our family events… it is my prayer that one day she will for the sake of your baby, I have not visited him for 2 weeks now and next week if she doesn’t come will be 3 weeks… what you and I used to talk about your kids, is not happening at this moment, maybe in time I will have the opportunity to enjoy Vinnie at my leisure… he is the cutes baby, very smart and handsome, just like you… Victor, as I write those memories it is my hope that some day your son will learn what a great guy you are… I want to make sure that he never fills your absence because you are not here… I know beyond a shadow of doubt that you would have been the best dad ever… I want him to know that you had an incredible will to succeed and that you fought a great battle …. As a mother I could have not asked for a better son, even with all your short comings… I know that you are and will continue to look after all of us… specially your brother… he needs you and misses you very much… As for me you know me, we are never far from each other … I love you so very much and I miss you too. Your forever loving Mom Close
22 Momths / Mom
My adored child... my Victitor... I have a picture memory of you jumping on the bed... you were 3 years old, and you got hold my leg, for me to look at you telling me "Mom I will never leave you" those words still resonate in my heart like it was yesterday... at that time we were so new in this country and had so many plans... beautiful plans.... but never for a minute your death was on those plans... How lucky I was to love you and enjoy your your life for all those years... as I type this I can't contain the tears flowing from my eyes... it is only 22 months my son.... 22 months that your beautiful and smiling eyes don't look at me... your voice and your daily phone calls /// just to check up on me...that I don't hear... You know my son that I love you and always will...I can see our reunion in heaven... i know that you will have everything prapared for us the family you chose to love and be with... till then my adored son I will continue to count the months... This Saturday I am going to see Vinnie... his birthday is comming up... October 27... he will be 2 years he has your gaze and when he turn his head he makes faces like you... he is so cute and I love him very much... there is no much to report... Jerry still strugles with his parking ticktes but I must let him take responsabilitie for his actions... Erika very big and is moving to her house this weekend... she is due in December... Mariela is getting marry in November but I don't have the invitations yet... grandma is doing fine and uncle George is working very hard at your old job... Say hello to my dad, Anita and my cousing Jose... he is alot of fun I love you and I miss you my baby... remember that ...OXOXOXO Close
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